Really Faking It

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⠀⠀⠀⠀Don’t tell me how do I reverse a mistake
⠀⠀⠀⠀I’d kill myself before I’ll openly admit.
⠀⠀⠀⠀I can’t create reality out of what’s fake.
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⠀⠀⠀⠀No longer is there anything at stake
⠀⠀⠀⠀I care about. But just for the hell of it,
⠀⠀⠀⠀tell me, how might I erase a mistake?
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⠀⠀⠀⠀A true heart’s one that will truly break.
⠀⠀⠀⠀Not so mine. Mine only knows to quit.
⠀⠀⠀⠀Reject the real thing, and all else is fake.
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⠀⠀⠀⠀The real thing’s too good to be real. I make
⠀⠀⠀⠀it up for myself. Let me shit my own shit.
⠀⠀⠀⠀Don’t tell me how to correct a mistake.
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⠀⠀⠀⠀What makes it so ridiculous an ache
⠀⠀⠀⠀is how I’ll only trust what’s counterfeit.
⠀⠀⠀⠀Get real? I stopped trying to. Now I fake.
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⠀⠀⠀⠀There was one once for whom I was opaque
⠀⠀⠀⠀and natural, genuine, my perfect fit.
⠀⠀⠀⠀So how do I undo my worst ever mistake?—
⠀⠀⠀⠀I lost my one real love and kept the fake.


prompted by Daily Prompt: Pants on Fire at the Daily Post

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4 Responses to Really Faking It

  1. Frances D says:

    You do bare your soul with your poetry.

    • I don’t believe metaphor or any other poetic expression hides truth, but rather reveals its naked depth. My soul has an intense encounter with every word I write, even the lightest verse, and never comes away from the experience without at least one new scar to show for it. Thank you for reading and sharing. ✒Cyn

  2. I think a lot of people could relate to this one, Cyn. Oh yeah.

    • That’s sad. There’s so much hurt we think we endure alone, when we’re not. Conversely, something like his ought be unique, and unfortunately it’s all too common. It’s not an experience I recommend. ✒Cyn

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